A Blog A Day

It\’s a blog where I write about the extraordinary and the ordinary things going on in my life.

Popular Post

I’ve noticed that my post, ” Letter to My Ex-Boyfriend” is the most popular post in this blogsite. I would like to change that someday. I hope that people would come here to read about my views on life. Although my split with my ex-boyfriend was really a monumental event in my life, I hope to be able to move past that. But it would seem that there is no escaping the past. At least, not for now.

The shadow of my past relationship has affected my near-relationship with Richard. I messed up pretty bad with Richard. I hope things can be  mended though. But where to start?

My relationship with Richard was complicated from the very beginning. But unlike my ex-boyfriend, meeting Richard was a really good thing for me. Of course I messed it all up with my paranoia and insecurities. I don’t know if I’ve lost him completely or if it is even worth it to patch things up with him. But because of my disagreement with Richard I was made aware that somehow, my past relationship has still managed to affect my near-relationship with Richard.

It’s really hard to accept this. But I still love my ex. And I know in my heart that I don’t want to go back to him, I realize that I must accept that I still love him and will probably love him for the rest of my life. And yet how can this be? Is it possible to love two people at the same time? It is actually very possible.

If we limit ourselves to loving just one person, we lose out. Of course there are many degrees of love but love is still love. But the thing is, and I need to think hardly on this one. Was I ever in love with Richard? Or did I want to fall in love with him so desperately so I could forget my ex? I have to meditate on this one. I want to find out for sure what Richard is to me. Or if I want him to be part of my story.

Advertisements

No comments yet»

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: