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Bono Soku Bodai

I realized a lot of things over the weekend. I went to Camuigin to try to recharge. And I ended up realizing that I went there to escape. Deep inside I’m getting tired of work. And I guess that’s the reason why I’m now in trouble with my punctuality. I’ve been served a final written warning. If I don’t shape up, I’m going to be fired.

And it got me thinking how lucky I am to have this job. I got promoted and many other opportunities for a promotion came my way but I became complacent. I was short-listed for another promotion but I missed out on the opportunity because I didn’t take my interview seriously. I also had another shot at another position but I didn’t even try out of laziness.

I guess I became ungrateful for the many blessings that were given to me. And I guess all it took was a wake up call. I have to do something about my attendance and I also have to look at my attitude about work. And my overall attitude with life.

It is true. Your environment is a reflection of who you are inside. If you are an ungrateful person, many opportunities will pass you by. If you are an unloving person, no one will care for you. If you are an unfriendly person, people will not like you. If you complain a lot, people will avoid you. The thing is, unless you are an aware person, you won’t realize how our inner self affects our environment. The inner and the outer are connected.

And I’m beginning to get a clearer picture of how karma works. I don’t fully understand it yet, but I understand how it works in my life. Whatever causes I create, since I chant, I will see the effects right away. And if I don’t like the effect, I have the power to change it. And how do I change the effect? I change it by creating another cause– a good cause.

In most cases, it would take years for the effects of our actions to manifest itself. But once you chant, you will be able to feel the effects right away. And because of your awareness, you would be able to discern the reason why such a thing happened.

The practitioners talk about acquiring greater wisdom through chanting. I never believed it until now. I’ve learned so much from my mistakes. And I realized how my actions affect my life. I am more aware of the choices that I make because I am aware of the consequences of the choices that I make.

My Buddhist friend, Ankita said that we chant in order to live a regret-free life. And I guess she is right. Once you chant, you realize that you have the power to change your destiny. That you are not bound by the past. That you can actually do something about your current situation.

I’ve been wondering if I need chanting in my life. I may not have the answers right now, but I know that there is a difference between the person that I am now and the person that I was before.

I used to have a defeatist attitude.If a small problem arose, I would worry right away. I would get depressed for days or several weeks and sometimes even months. Now, I get sad and depressed, but it rarely lasts several weeks. I may get sad but I still have that will to live.

Another Buddhist friend, Jodine gave me a good piece of advise. She told me that chanting is not magic. She said that chanting increases one’s wisdom. There is a reason why prayers don’t get answered or why they don’t get answered right away. Whatever the results of our wishes and desires, we would gain infinite wisdom from it.That’s what they call bono soku bodai It means that earthly desires equals enlightenment.


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