A Blog A Day

It\’s a blog where I write about the extraordinary and the ordinary things going on in my life.

To Be Happy Again

It’s been hard for me to forgive myself. It’s literally taken me years to love again. It’s not that I’m in love right now, but I know what I have right now could be good for me. And love, I’ll find myself there again. My life will come full circle.

I don’t know why it took me years to realize how sad and broken I am inside. But I really tried hard to get better. But sometimes, not all wounds heal that fast. This is an especially deep wound. And I know I had to be patient.

I don’t want to lose him. I feel in my heart that he is good for me. It’s fear that is holding me back. I have to let go of the past if ever I am to have a chance of being happy with someone again. I know I have to let go of the hurt and the fear.

I truly believe that I finally deserve to be happy with someone again. But first, I must learn to forgive myself. People make mistakes. People get hurt all the time. There’s no need to beat myself up for a mistake. I can’t undo the past. I can’t go back. I can only move forward. In time I will learn to accept that I had loved and I was hurt. And in time, I will learn to accept that I deserve to be happy again.

I deserve to be happy. That’s something I haven’t heard myself admit. Everyone deserves to be happy. Everyone.

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4 Comments»

  Tapir wrote @

I’ve read almost of your journey and I think you’re so great.. :)

  jj wrote @

why wasn’t there anymore updates?do you have another blog?

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